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警察叔叔 says that I must not write too much about myself because it is very dangerous for innocent girls like me! :D

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The previous post feels like I am writing a composition. :D

Yesterday there was this Chinese Composition talk at Nanyang Girls School. The talk was quite boring, slept a while. :p
The school was SUPER BIG and NICE! There was a boarding school which is a hostel! There was a stadium, swing, auditorium, lecture room and many more! The auditorium is very nice! The seats are very comfty. OMG! I wanna study there! Ahh! & their chocolate puffs are SUPER DUPER NICE! The chocolate inside tastes very chocolatety! I wanna eat some more.... *Saliva droops*

Here are some bombastic words I learnt this week during school lessons:
During English lesson:
`extravaganza
`wringer
`omnipotent
During Literature lesson:
`limbo
`stoic
`repercussion
During Science lesson:
`phenolphthalein
`methyl
phenolphthalein and methyl orange are kinds of indicators

P.S. Today, I saw 'cloud rainbow'. That means that there are colours of rainbow shown on the clouds! I believed you could see it too during 7.00pm till 7.10pm and it will turn dark after that. :D back to top?

Floorball is a sport that I held close to my heart because I always played it during P.E. lesson, in primary school...

The classrooms on the 6th storey, small-sized chairs, clean tables, whiteboard, it is still so vivid in my mind. The hall, canteen and the stalls that only sold food that is less than $1.50. The floorball sticks, nets, balls, I could still feel the atmosphere of the game. I could still remember when it was during P.E. lesson. We grouped ourselves. I was with my other 4 best friends. We were waiting anxiously on the floor of the hall, hoping that Mr Guna would point at our group. 'Me! Me!' His index finger was in a dilemma, whether to choose which groups, all the groups were excited to be in the game. 'Yes!' Our group was up! We went to take the floorball stick with pride. In our positions, Mr Guna blew his whistle, the game started. Till now, that game was still fresh in my mind. It feels like the game was yesterday. The anxiety in the atmosphere, the cheers when we emerged winners and the amazing teamwork and effort. I would never forget.

But things had changed, there were no cheers anymore, only jeers, there were no anxiety anymore, only disappointment.

I saw the same sport again on Friday. The floorball nets, sticks and balls. I was over the moon. I thought I could get a taste of the victorious game again. Hence, I played floorball with them. We were split in 2 groups. They started the game. I was very enthusiastic. I chased after the ball, hoping to regain the triumph feeling. However, I didn't feel it, not even a sweet feeling.

'Can you be more 'enthu'?'
'I am enthusiastic!'

'Walao eh! Can you pass the ball properly?'
'I'm sorry. It's just that my skills 'deproved' because I haven't played it for 2 years already. I'm sure I-'
'Sure lose already 'lah''

'How can they say that!' I thought furiously. I gritted my teeth. Simultaneously, I felt rejected and dejected. I felt like I was the 'odd one out'. I felt vey lonely at that instance. I had an strong impulse to cry but I held it. I felt so weak, mentally. I felt that I was too naive. Things would never have been the same. Things changed. I could probably never play a floorball game like I did in the past, with so much happiness and enthusiastism in the air and victory. Never. I wanted to just walked off. But I don't know why, I just couldn't.

In the end, everyone didn't had a smile on the face. Thus, they ended the game with anger and unsatisfaction. I was despised because of my floorball skills. I was once a floorball player with skills that was still acceptable. But now, I was despised of it. It didn't feel good. I felt like a failure. I felt that all my pride and glory was gone. I felt all those years of training to be an average floorball player were wasted. I pondered over what's the meaning of having those childish and naive childhood when you had to experience the harshness of reality. Why not just let us experience the scarey realtity instead of letting us enjoy our ideal environment and then get really hurt when you know it was just part of your 'dreams'. I kept telling myself after the game, 'Get over it RouShan! Be Brave!' But I can't do it. Sorrow was all over me.

Whenever, I think of it, I would get emotionally drained.

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Yesterday there was no band because the seniors are having SYF band dinner. I thought I could go home earlier to rest. However, Rayna, Amanda and me was slacking after school. Rayna and Amanda was training for tomorrow's 2.4km run. I only joined them with the training for a while. Heehee.
Today, band resumed. I've forgotten to bring my theory stuffs again. Thus, I had to borrow from my junior. :p My Aural Perception sucks. *Sobs* The sec ones are having drills today! Haha. I bet they would think that drills suck. I hope they could learn to appreciate drills someday because it's fun. It's fun to march! It's just like walking but your hands need to swing all the way. :D back to top?

Amkss Band got Gold for SYF! I was very proud of all of them. I could proudly say that I am a AMKSS gold award winning band member and my seniors had done a superb job on 5th of April. I hope that 2 years later, the band could also produce the same result or even better. :D
Please don't think that you had done badly, you had done great! Why look at the dark side when you can look at the super bright side? It's a Gold, people. How many bands in Singapore could get a gold? Of course, if it was a Gold with Honest, we would all be in heaven already. But Gold is still very good! Thus, don't put too much pressure on yourselves, kay? You had done a really good job that day. :D
You had done yourself proud so be it. BE PROUD! HAVE NO REGRETS. It's too late for regrets now. So, don't regret and hold your head high, 'I am for a gold award winning band, AMKSS band. And I totally love it and the experiences I went through. With no regrets.' back to top?

I'm ADDICTED to Lady Gaga's BORN THIS WAY! :D back to top?