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When my family members asked me about my band camp, I then realised that the band camp was not fun at all. I realised that there was nothing much about this camp. It was just band band band and more band. It was boring to the max. Gosh. There wasn't anything interesting at all. There was no night trail! No games! No nothing! Man, and the seniors slept so early. No one to play to anymore. Last year, I still have friends and my direct seniors and other sections' seniors with me joking around the night. I guess I won't have this chance anymore.

Anyway, I am still gonna describe a little.

Day 1,
Sectionals. Usually, I love sectionals but I don't like this sectionals. Sectionals is the time when you practice your part and make it well and also bond among your section. I can't feel the bond between the seniors and me. Maybe just a little. They got their parts of Japanese Graffiti and Sinfonia and they took turns to play the drumset. Jan was playing the drumset and Gerald was teaching her. Sec 1s are supposed to have full band and they broke up for sectionals and Xueqi took them. They were having such a great time and I watched. I yawned. I felt a little sadness. I got frustrated. I stomped out of the Innotech room and went to the band room and watch the Sec 1s. I got in. I felt fresh. I felt alive. I felt it. I watched the Sec 1s practice their solo night.
Lunch. I was in food com. So, yeah. Gotta give out the food.
Theory test.
Drills.
Dinner and bath.
Sec 1s Solo Night! Overall, I think our section did pretty good. :D
Lights out!

Day 2:
Woke up early to go out and buy breakfast. We bought bread, jam, milk, cereal, Milo.
POP Rehearsal.
Lunch.
Dinner and bath.
Band.
Lights out!

Day 3:
Breakfast.
Photo-taking.
Drills.
Lunch. Pizza.
POP.
Junior and Reco Band Performance.
Dismiss.
Went Mac with friends and seniors.

This band camp, I felt, has pulled the seniors and me apart. I felt very distant. I felt as if they don't give a damn in whatever they do. All they care about is themselves. I felt quite left out. They don't wait for juniors. They just go when they are ready. Like when they are teaching me the water bottle trick. She taught me half way and she went to join the seniors and play already. I felt like I cannot fit in. I am just an outsider. That made me felt like I am just another nuisance. I felt very lonely. I felt very left out. There was no comfort. I wanted from the bottom of my heart to learn that water bottle trick. It looks so cool. If I am really that annoying and irritating to teach, if I am really very slow, if I am really very lousy, then I rather don't learn it all if I really gives you such a hard time. When I am with the seniors, I felt like I am not myself, I acted as another person. I have to act as another person to be with them. I felt uncomfortable.

I felt comfort when I am with the juniors. Probably because I spent more time with them and bond with them more. I felt very bonded when I am with them. It was fun. We spent such a nice time together. We joke around. We're just like friends. I felt very relaxed with them.

Actually, I just wanted your all to notice my existence. Don't treat me as if like I am dead, like I am not there at all. I don't want you all to change completely 180degrees and give too much much care and concern into everything I do. Just let me fit into the picture. That's all I ever wanted. Not too much and not too less. I am happy with that. :)

Or probably it's just me who is being too demanding. I should be grateful to have seniors to help me out. I think it's just the demanding me. I am complaining too much, I guess.

I will miss the graduating seniors! They are also our direct seniors. They taught us a lot of things. :D back to top?